It's been a while since I wrote a blog post, because the last time I wrote, it turned into a book!
I never intended to write a book, and it was the last thing on my 'to do' list, but ultimately, for me, it became an act of obedience. Completely blind obedience.
Blind obedience is really hard. I see if in my kids, they want to know why, when, what and a million other questions along the way, but don't often obey blindly. Actually I'm kind of glad, because it means they question things in a healthy way, but there are times when we do just need to plain obey.
It says in the scriptures that "obedience is better than sacrifice" (1Sam 15:22) and what I have learned is that often it's the decision to obey that is harder. Once you've made the decision to obey, the sacrifices that have to be made along the way seem less of a sacrifice, because you're obeying the Voice One who called and there is no greater act. Also, if you're anything like me, the drive to see it through, and complete the task put before you, also makes some of the sacrifices pale to insignificance.
When I wrote the book, I had absolutely no idea what God was going to do with it, if anything at all. I was stressed and desperately praying that God would show me His strategy, and reveal what I needed to do to 'steward' what He had given me. It never occurred to me to do nothing. But actually what I've learned is that actually, God doesn't need me to do an aggressive Facebook campaign, or pay a ton of money for paid advertising, because when He breathes on something, it's goes to places and heights that no money could have ever bought.
Blind obedience is hard for humans, because we're programed to need or want more information, and we don't like trusting when we don't have it. I am in no way done with this lesson, but I feel like I was given an opportunity for God to fully prove Himself to me.
But then I got thinking. We don't often give God the opportunity to prove Himself, because we don't like to blindly trust and obey. Actually, God will always be faithful and will always prove Himself, because it's in His character to be faithful, He cannot be anything else. He can only complete what He's spoken, because if He doesn't, then He's not God. It's actually us who are the problem in this test we put before God. We wait for God to do His bit before we are willing to do our bit. But that's not how it works.
How can we know He'll catch us, if we never jump?
How can we know He'll open the door, if we never approach it?
How can we know He'll bring things to life, if we never let Him breathe on it?
Actually, our test of God, is really a test of us.
God never changes. He's always faithful. He's always true. He will always surprise us.
It's us who need to trust that our obedience will always be seen, always be rewarded one way or another, even if it's in ways we don't expect.
Go on.... take the safety net away, and let Him catch you..