time with God

The secret prayer of breakthrough in your life!

break me

We are so trained by today’s Western Christian culture to avoid anything that’s hard or a struggle, and to run away from difficulty. Life has become all about making it as easy and yet as fulfilled as possible. We’re bombarded with ads from people who’ve figured out the secret to making money on the beach, or a new ‘get rich quick’ scheme. We are convinced that we shouldn’t have to work hard and nothing should ever be a struggle, and if it is - we’re doing it wrong.

A sentence that I find myself saying over and over is ‘the principles of the Kingdom are always the opposite fo the world’. I think this is as true as ever these days. There is a strange juxtaposition of the millennial over-emotional state, and ‘owning’ their emotions, while also not wanting to engage the wrestling match that God calls us up to. It seems strange to me that people are so willing to fight for a culture that gives permission to any and all emotions at any time, while also having this sense of entitlement to an easy life.

I would suggest that the most effective prayer we can be praying is that God would simply break us.
It’s a dangerous and serious prayer - because God will do it. He is always looking for a fully surrendered heart, one that is mouldable and teachable, and more often than not - he needs to break some stuff in order to mould and teach.

We are experts in crafting this cocoon around ourselves. We take great care of this mask. It’s what we present to the world as the real us. It’s what we present to God as the real us. Some of us actually spend more time on mainting the mask than the heart behind it. We think we can con the world around us that this beautifully presented, ‘instagram-able’ mask is real, and more to the point, we think we can con God.

When we pray these dangerous prayers expecting God to gently massage our mask and be happy that we’ve prayed the prayer. But God isn’t interested in the mask. He didn’t make it. We did.
God is only interested in his creations, those that have eternal value - our souls.

We so often look at the events that bring us to our knees as bad things. We ask God to release us, rescue us, take us OUT, “make it stop'“! But we don’t realise that the events we’re walking through are connected to the prayers we’ve prayed!

What if God is allowing us to be smashed by the storm, because he is trying to answer that prayer for “MORE” that we prayed? Maybe he’s allowing these waves to break off the cocoon of junk we’ve plastered all over ourselves, because he needs to reach what’s beneath it - the beautiful creation he wants to connect with. Could it be that he’s not actually breaking us so much as stripping off the mask we’ve presenedt to him, so that the real us can commune with him?

I don’t believe God ever destroys his own creation - not since the flood when he promised he wouldn’t do it again. Therefore, I don’t believe God would ever break the essence of a person. I believe we have become so attached to the mask that we can no longer tell the difference between it and us, so when God allows it to break, we feel it. It’s become a part of who we think we are - but it’s not.

The mask is a man made impression of a person, based on what we think the world wants us to be. It’s a plastic counterfeit of a supernatural and eternal treasure. How can we possibly out-create the creator?

Maybe God is so committed to partnering with the created version of you, that he’s willing to allow you to walk through the storm you’re in, because he knows it’s the only way the mask will come unstuck. Maybe God is so heartbroken that we think our version of ourselves is better than his, that he’s guided us straight into the desert so that we can be confronted with the real, unmasked, raw version of ourselves and become reacquainted with it, so that he can too.

Maybe God is longing to pierce the masquerade we present, and takes our prayers for ‘more Lord'!’ as an invitation of pursuit. He is willing to pursue the innermost part of you that is his image, to the ends of time, because he knows how it can impact the world, and partner with him for the Kingdom.

The secret is to pray “break me”…

the introverted people person

the introverted people person

Recently I’ve realised that there are a host of people out there who are called to people, but are naturally introverted themselves.

This is me. I never realised it was me until I found myself day dreaming of quiet vistas, lakes, forests, mountains and isolation. I don’t know if I changed over the years, or it’s just been highlighted by the fact that I have less time alone due to being a mother, and having a business.

It’s a difficult tension to balance when you are called to connect and to genuinely touch heart to heart with others, while also needing space and time alone and quiet, in order to fill up so you can cope with the people you’re called to!

Passionately Pursuing our Purpose

Passionately Pursuing our Purpose

I have just completed walking through the 30-day devotional ‘Dreaming’ which was released in March of this year. Following the completion of the ‘Dare to Ask’ book, I was led on this crazy adventure of God, of not only making the music that the book is about, but also on a journey of understanding that this journey of ‘Daring to Ask’ is comprised of a journey within itself.

Bitter or Sweet?

Bitter or Sweet?

Has your summer been fruitful?

I think for many of us, we don’t really think about being fruitful as we go about our busy lives. This evaluation comes more as a result of hindsight.

It also really depends on what ‘fruitful’ means to you!

Dare to stand - a shift in posture

Dare to stand - a shift in posture

I'm spending a lot of time writing at the moment, about being 'awakened'. It's a journey many of us have been through, some of us are in the middle of, and some long for. Some don't even know this journey is available to them! Being 'awakened' is the process of 'waking up' spiritually, to who we are, what our purpose is, and how God wants to partner with us. 

Dare to Delight

Dare to Delight

For some of us, waking up and delighting in the Lord comes more easily and naturally than for others. I myself have struggled for years with guilt and a feeling of condemnation that I haven't found it easy to spring out of bed at 5 am in order to spend 2 hours with God. 

Dare to fight

Dare to fight

My attention has recently been drawn to David and his confrontation of Goliath. We know this story, some of us have heard this story since we were small and have grown up with David being a hero to us. We've loved this image of a shepherd boy defeating a skilled, warrior giant! And so we should! 

Dare to Fly

Dare to Fly

A few years back, I went to a women’s meeting where the topic being spoken about was the desert. I remember that the speaker went into great detail explaining the extent of the process that a caterpillar goes through in order to transition into its new form – a butterfly.

Pressing on

Pressing on

I hate cheesy New Years blog posts that try to convince you that the passing of a new day will somehow magically cause a reset in our lives, and that we get to start again come 00:01 on January 1st. 

So this won't be one. 

We don't get to hit reset. We have to live with all that went down in the previous year, and although we may have renewed hope that the next year will be better, there is no guarantee of this, and we don't always know how to make that happen. 

Designed for Vulnerability

Designed for Vulnerability

I just got home from 10 days away on the Ascend Carmel program, where I serve on the leadership team. Many amazing things happened during this 10 days, most of which are not my stories to tell. But the thing that most impacted me about this 10 days away, was the courage that the participants showed in being vulnerable. 

The power of choice

The power of choice

Recently I was faced with a choice. For me it was clear which was right and which was wrong, and my head never had to debate which the right choice was. It was obvious and clear.

What surprised me was how much my heart and emotions had to debate the choice. 

Own it.

Recently I've been thinking a lot about how we have to walk through lessons and seasons more than once.  It's a shame we don't learn all we need to learn the first time we encounter a lesson. Like children, it seems that we need constant reminders and experiences that help us re-learn the lessons He needs us to learn.